A year ago yesterday I was working my last day of work for three months. I didn’t know it then. It was Friday, September 30, 2011. I was sure I’d be back at work on Monday. My due date was October 1, but no one is born on their due date. Right?
I wasn’t feeling great. I thought I may have had a few contractions that evening. I didn’t tell Josh… I was scared… Even though we had gone through childbirth class (actually it was natural childbirth class), I wasn’t sure how my little munchkin was going to get out of my body. I knew there were only two ways out, but neither sounded pleasant to me.
Now’s probably the time I should tell you about my natural childbirth plan. I was set on having a natural childbirth. We had taken the natural childbirth class; I had read up on relaxation techniques; my calming, peaceful music was packed for the labor and delivery room; the birth plan was typed up and ready to be presented to the medical staff (the birth plan that said, “don’t offer me any drugs, I’ll let you know if I need anything”). I was prepared for everything… except the pain of actually being in labor.
A year ago today, I was in labor… the pain was excruciating!!!
Side note: If you’re reading this and you’re pregnant for the first time, labor and delivery is going to be a breeze. Even though it was painful for me, you’ll be fine 🙂
At the hospital, the nurse told me I wasn’t in active labor and should go home. I gave her a death look. I was eventually admitted and immediately requested an epidural. Josh asked if he should get out the birth plan and I yelled, “NO!” I was in a lot of pain and I needed drugs.
We were admitted around 8:30 pm on October 1. I was given an epidural shortly thereafter and the baby came out via emergency c-section at 11:37 that night. His umbilical cord fell down before his head, known as cord prolapse. The baby can’t be born this way, so Jackson required an emergency c-section.
That was one year ago today.
When I look back on this past year, I can’t believe how much our lives have changed. Josh and I have learned to love someone more than we love each other or ourselves; we’ve learned how to change diapers, make bottles and survive on little sleep. We’ve learned how to appreciate the small things, like every time Jackson smiles, laughs or hits a toy. The past year has had highs and very low lows. We’ve learned we will live through almost anything, including incredibly bad news… and that life goes on and gets better.